1. |
Sneakers to Fill
02:37
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The natural takes his showdown stance, a could-be kid with a cosmic chance
Stands starry-eyed with an ancient kind of will
From a threshold town with no way out, to rescue himself from without
And leave behind some big sneakers to fill
A soul man of constant sorrow, losing blues in a car he borrowed
Yearning for the searching feels no ease with being young
Conquered fear of leaving certain shore, with a hard luck hope for something more
The anger on the run it looked like fun
So I wrestled with reality, for a young man's immortality
I felt it strong and simple like you do when you're alone
I ran and reached and overwhelmed, left locals laughing to themselves
And did that heavy work all on my own
Swore that I'd mug smug impossibilities, add my name to the histories
Jump a train for the passing lane and wave this town goodbye
To cramped clubs and open fields, I gotta know just how it feels
Exhausted but alive at the end of the line
Oh but I've no wonderboy abilities, no hero was I born to be
And the wanting will forever be my curse
But I'm stubborn through the sleepless nights, in resistance of a mythless life
For the universe in my movements and my words
So when they say "get in line and keep that job," man deep inside I know they're wrong
I believe that there's some greatness in my muscles or my mind
Gonna clear my head of all distractions, not content to 'see what happens'
I need it now but man I couldn't name it if I tried
By my Dylan bones and Springsteen soul, the baseball gods I used to know
Romantic dreams and a steady climb uphill
I'll search and search until I'm blinded, and one blessed night I'm gonna find it
Til then I got some big sneakers to fill
Til then I got some big sneakers to fill
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2. |
Saturday Night in CT
03:20
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It's Saturday night in CT
You're feeling kinda low
You wanna go out and try to get lucky
But there aint no place to go
It's Saturday night in CT
You cut the grass all goddamn day
Come home and just turn on the TV
And dream about moving away
But your belief will break so easily, and fold to reasoned inquiries
It leaves you broken, busting at the seams
'Cuz you can't save much cash you see, or embarking on no odyssey
In debt and dire need of gasoline
It's Saturday night in CT
They're off work in Boston now
Everybody here's thinking about leaving
But my mind's on getting out
It's Saturday night in CT
Striking midnight on the MetroNorth
Things around here getting sleepy
I wonder what it's like tonight in New York
But pure escape just isn't good enough, it's meaningless it's giving up
Maybe move away but that aint all you need
And this world fills up my head with doubt, that if these dreams don't get me out
It'll be too late to leave by any means
From a mythless generation
Of remakes and unrealized dreams
This fear aint my boss no more, babe
No more maintenance life for me
Tonight my soul's got a trace of transcendence
There's something here and I believe
It's more than hope, relocation, and pipe dreams
And hungry Saturday nights in CT
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3. |
Pickin' A Town
02:58
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Man you know sometimes I think about just pickin' a town
Moving somewhere far away and picking up just to settle down
I'd have a car that works, a dog, and an old farmhouse front porch
A diner on the corner, get involved in local sports
Man you know sometimes I think about just pickin' a town
Man you know sometimes I think about just pickin' a job
Some real steady paid profession, I'd apply and work my way up to the top
Maybe I could be a teacher or a well-off business man
Or I could be a farmer, work outside and with my hands
Man you know sometimes I think about just pickin' a job
Man you know sometimes I wish that I could just find a girl
We'd go steady for a few years, form a mutual desire for the world
And the house, the kids, the finances and general adult life
I'd kiss her in the morning and I'd hold her through the night
Man you know sometimes I wish that I could just find a girl
Oh sometimes it sure does seem a whole lot easier than this
To have some money and some company and a settled place to live
And though I'm not sure that I'd hate it just seems like a trick
To abandon the ambitions that I've had since I was a kid
And that's why whenever I think about just pickin' a town
I think of being middle aged with dreams unchased and a life lived out of the lost and found
And I resolve to not give up or put it off another day
I'm not sure what I'm doing but I do it anyway
Cuz man I want more out of life than just pickin' a town
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4. |
One Last Dream
05:26
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One last dream and I''m leaving this town
One last dream 'fore I gotta settle down
If I want it so bad why am I screwing around?
When you get old I bet it's wasted time you live down
I aint got the band to play rock n roll hits
I don't live in times that allow much for myth
You won't ever see me playin' ball on TV
I don't think many folks get where they'd like to be
And it aint comin' easy, sometimes feels it aint comin' at all
They say you gotta get real kid, replace dreams with long drives and alcohol
I used to think that my blues were unique
That nobody nowhere'd ever had 'em like me
That my time on this Earth would have a climactic peak
And somehow that moment would collide with my dreams
24 years old and the thought haunts my head
I aint nowhere close to where I wanna be yet
One last dream it aint changing the world
But if that keeps me here then here's all I deserve
And it aint comin' easy, sometimes feels it aint comin' at all
They say you gotta get real kid, you might leave but you won't make it far
So one last dream is all I've got left
I wish I could say that I aint looking back
There's something out there to win or to find
Understand, overcome and it's gonna be mine
And it aint comin' easy, sometimes feels it aint comin' at all
But I know that it's in me, in my bones and in my guitar
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5. |
Achilles At The Athenian
04:51
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Achilles at the Athenian Diner on Route 8
He never sailed for Troy, he played it safe and now it's too late
His body built for glory dons an employee's name plate
Passions smashed to hobbies, he stirs his coffee bound to stay
I want what's plain impossible, justify it as a dream
Tell my folks something responsible, we all try to get some sleep
I want the adults that I care about to be proud that I did it right
They got worried love for a first born son, "what's he doing with his life?"
Sometimes I wish my dreams just called for class and student loans
Realistic and reliable and accomplished close to home
But the calling to adventure will not guarantee a job
Don't wanna be no disappointment but I know that I can't stop
I aint brave Achilles comforted by destiny
There's nothing I was born to do, is that aimless or is that free?
Greatness or failure past the eternal on-ramp gates
Dreams and dread in my heart and head at this diner on Route 8
Sign above the highway says "bright futures dim with age"
Hometown saying "if you go you're gonna throw all this away"
Sign above the highway "all potential fades with age"
The threshold is the edge of town and it's my choice to make
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6. |
Man Of The World
02:04
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From the hero's side of reality
A man of the world once said to me
In a daydream, workday drive in the car
"Are you satisfied with the way things are?
Resigning yourself to a tragic fate
Getting pretty good at that job you hate
NIghtly promise that change will begin
The new day dawns and you're sleeping in
It feels hopeless in the place you live
Disorders, vices, specialists
You're anxious, violent and pigeon-holed
Shaped and shaved, all skill, no soul
You got an idea of what life could be
But you're scared and embarrassed for others to see
You're lazy and busy and making excuses
That kind of dreaming won't ever be lucid"
I said "damn you're right and I'm yearning to run
But it seems much easier said than done
I got low cash flow and a mountain of debt
And a masterpiece I aint started yet
Legends all seem destined to be
I wanna do that but it's beyond me
Fearing failure, finances and time
Spent taking a chance and falling behind"
He said "nobody asks you to chase your dreams
And worthwhile action aint taken with ease
But don't waste time waiting on destiny
Go out and work on it actively
Cuz sweating it out in the minor leagues
As an opening act with the country to see
An inspired kid on the proving ground
Is how real legends get started out
So roll them bones and ring them bells
My ex-girlfriends gonna wish me well
From my hard hometown to the capital cities
A personal everything flowing within me
Stepping and trying and paying my dues
For the real thing, babe and the big time too
I'm a minor leaguer, an opening act
But someday man I'll be better than that
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7. |
Ancient Kinda Man
03:47
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3 a.m. don't feel romantic, just condemned
To a life like an abandoned epic poem
Kids in cars cling to a sliver of the promise
Underdogs with the weariest of hope
They curse town limits and the locked gates in their minds
Lament, repent for all the things they're not
Not quite tougher than those kids from down the road
No saviors, pioneers or astronauts
They just grow older with that dreamin'
To break a bold and brand new west
And if not a lion or a brave, babe
At least a good heart and a quest
To wake one morning to a red sky up above
Dark clouds rising and you're out there on your own
To face the madness and the fury of the storm
Gone too far from shore to turn for home
Beyond the boundaries and enlightened by pursuit
With just your head, your hands and heart to pull you through
To step just once against the meanest of conditions
And live or die by what you were born to do
But they say "that hammer aint for you kid
It's too late to live or think like that
People just don't talk that way no more
And anyway there aint no new west left"
The big bad future talks of struggles, cracks its knuckles
I've got all I've ever known behind my heels
And I need something like an answer or a victory
To know not just what it is but how it feels
So to the well and to the wheels and to the west
Take my hard luck hope headlong to the promised land
Hurl myself against the madness and the fury
And live or die just like some ancient kinda man
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8. |
The #l-u-v-l-y-f Blues
03:32
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She's waiting on the edge of town for lucky number 3
I wouldn't feel so sad but you know number 2 was me
She's west unto the world, man I swear she was the one
I guess it wouldn't work out anyway I can't move for lack of funds
When I was young I'd hoped that love worked like romantic comedy
I'd find a hometown high school sweetheart and one day she'd marry me
But the talking phase, the separate ways just left me all confused
Trying to navigate the #l-u-v-l-y-f blues
I'm recommended dating apps where young pretty people meet
But ice breaker texts and selfies steal my soul and sell it cheap
I never really entertained 'em I'm too pig-headed and proud
The only 'tinder' that I like's made outta chicken anyhow
So I walk on down the highway righteous, romantic and bored
And every time I meet a pretty girl my eyes'll meet the floor
If I'm refusing the perusing of soulmates on my cell phone
I'll have to quickly con some confidence or get comfortable alone
I watch old romantic movies when I lay in bed at night
Where lovers faced with leaving really had to mean goodbye
I'll wait, I'll write, I'll kiss goodnight it's fare thee well and then
So long kiddo, I gotta go, I hope we meet again
And bare the weight of all that hope to someday reunite
On a city street so far away or nostalgic hometown night
But data makes that longing cliche and obsolete
Cuz you can't really miss nobody with FaceTime and Insta feeds
My hair's thinning like I'm 40, man I'm only 23
I shake my fist up at the sky "God why you doin' this to me?"
He says "I gotta give these other guys a chance, it just aint fair
Owen, none of them would get a girl if I let you keep your hair"
I said "that's nice you think I'm handsome but I'm single, lonely too
And if I can't find her 'fore it falls out don't know what I'm gonna do"
"Relax it's just your hair there's more important things, OK?
And girls who'd marry based on hairlines aint the good girls anyway"
I really shouldn't wax nostalgic how I think things used to be
Lament the looks I wish I had and lack of tech literacy
Curse Romeo and Juliet who sent no anxious text response
Just cuz I've only been in love in years 2000 and beyond
And I'm struggling to figure out what any of this means
Taking a forced and fixed step forward into human history
Search for solace in the hope somewhere she's looking for me too
And singing about her #l-u-v-l-y-f blues
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The Rivalry Game
03:19
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I grew up with romantic visions like my life was feature film
I'd settle my unfinished business with supernatural acts of will
All the things I loved the best would be things I was born to do
Embrace ambitious expectations and I'd live up to 'em too
But when that dreaming don't come true you quickly turn to feeling old
You never thought of nothing else but you have to now you're told
Compartmentalize shortcomings, get you something else to do
Find your niche and make it quick this world won't wait around for you
And I've hear as you get older you mature, you find yourself
But that just feels like surrender, settling for something else
And I know I can't go back to fix the things that turned out wrong
I love the kid I used to be but in a lot of ways he's gone
And I don't wanna live my life trying to settle some lost score
About the rivalry game glory that I practiced so hard for
Somehow I gotta keep it moving, can't let bitterness take hold
Honor the practice, love, and soul over a melody that goes
And the living up to good enough to come up clutch and proving ground becoming
Left me overthinking under pressure, letting down and coming up too small
But I believe that I got one last chance at something
More than rose-tinted tall tales and a dream bitterly recalled
So come on boys be with me now the weekend's come along
We will be good someday I can feel it coming on
Saint Rita if you'd ever hear a prayer from the northeast
This is all that I got left and I gotta try at least
For one last day of summer 'fore the existential fall
Let's have a good hang and a party after pick-up basketball
Try to salvage some transcendence from the kid's broken dreams
At an open mic on a weekday night with a young man's song for free
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10. |
The Good Universe
05:23
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Born into this town just like an unlocked cell in jail
Almost free, still a detainee trying hard to post my bail
Cuz 23 feels old to me, no sight, no scent, no trail
Of my t-shirt dreams of the Major Leagues or a boxcar fairy tale
The word "career" it hit my ear, never sat right in my brain
The long job search and the paperwork, it all seems so insane
But the standard set can define success, other roads have rough terrain
And different aint free, there's no guarantee of redemption or acclaim
The discovery of eternity is something most deny
To take on love and dreams and life and know you're gonna die
I stay up late to beat that fate, still wake up terrified
And I run through days trying in vain to beat death or to hide
My heroes rise from their place in life stood stubborn and alone
They brave the night to bring the light to the fearsome and unknown
And forever live for what they did inside an ancient poem
When the aux chord speaks, athletic feats, and churches made of bones
Down river from those icons and all their immortal deeds
Sewn together by the promise of opportunity
By slaves and wars and long-locked doors disguised as others' needs
By a chance first kiss and another missed and a soul who braved the seas
Someday, some town, some kid like me is born and I'm long gone
This series of metamorphoses remains to take him on
The girl he'll lose and the hometown blues, the searching and the songs
Screaming "remember me" and the centuries trying to make more right than wrong
And I'm driving on a summer's night to a place all my friends go
I got a song in my back pocket and a move nobody knows
It's a long and lonesome road my friend, I'm out here on my own
And I flip the bird to the mean old world and go searching on for home
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11. |
I Was Here
03:22
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My name won't mean a thing to you
My hometown you're just passing through
My friends, my dreams and blues
But I was here
Like a hand print in an ancient cave
A stranger's name on a lonely grave
I'll leave this song to say
That I was here
I was here, I was here
I was here
I got dread and dreams I can't describe
A hero myth set to my times
And imagined, unlived lives
While I was here
Got a secret dream I'd die to guard
Of what I could be if I tried hard
And saw with just my heart
While I was here
I was here, I was here
I was here
Ever since I was a kid I been transfixed by my own visions of life
And I'd lay awake on school nights and I'd live out all those fables in my mind
Try to create my place in lonely human heritage we're born into and bound to carry on
So when out people and our instants are dead and distant they'll be ancient, never gone
I was here, I was here
I was here
I was here, I was here
I was here
And I'm not sure how my life will go
If contending in good faith and hope
Will leave anything to show
For being here
But the continuation comforts me
New kids from here will form new dreams
An ancestor's all I'll be
But I was here
I was here, I was here
And when my world has disappeared
This song remains to make it clear
That I was here
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